Name two facts about the last person who texted you?
he's blonde. the text he sent was asking if i'm mad.
haha.

If you were upset, who is the first girl you'd go to?
there isn't a girl i'd go to.

Do you remember who you liked in grade seven?
yes.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
"i know."
Name two facts about the last person who texted you?
he's blonde. the text he sent was asking if i'm mad.
haha.

If you were upset, who is the first girl you'd go to?
there isn't a girl i'd go to.

Do you remember who you liked in grade seven?
yes.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
"i know."

Last bed you slept in?
mineee.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
two.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
yes. only once, though.

Did you cry today?
nope.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
yeah.

Was yesterday better than today?
YES.

Your last text says?
"okay. you were just like with griffin, as usual and i thought you were like
pissed."

Who's the last male you talked to through a text?
kona.

Ever been called babe?
ha yeah. last night, random guys at classic.

Who's hoodie did you last wear?
griffin's.

Has anyone told you you have pretty eyes?
mhm.

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yeah.

Something that happened today that made you angry?
not really.

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
x mas. haha.

What are you going to do today?
sleeeeep.

Have you ever given up on anybody?
of course.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
no.

Have a best friend?
yes <3

Does somebody love you?
depends on how you mean that.

What did you do Friday Night?
lmfao, i don't even remember friday night.

When was the last time you saw the first person on your top?
emily? last night.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
kissed the person next to me goodnight.

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
no no no no no.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
sort of.

Are you single?
mhm (:

When was the last time you were in a very good mood?
this morning.

Will this weekend be a good one?
it's over, as of today. i hate sundays.

Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
CLOSED.

Do you text alot?
no.

Do you know how to use a lighter?
haha, yes.

Who were you with on the bus last?
ghetto.

Have you ever been caught skipping class?
no. i'm sly.

What did you do today?
nothing yet.

What are you going to spend money on next?
poster boards.

Look in your inbox, who are the last 2 people you have text messages from?
kona and griffin.

Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?
yeah.

What do you want to be when your older?
i don't even know right now.

Who was the last person you talked to over IM on myspace?
jesus.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yeah.

What are you going to do after this?
talk to griffin.

...
.....
show full post

i'm so confused.
cameron was right. i think.
what's going on?
is he kidding?
oh my god.
everything is so different.
everything is so confusing.
it's so cold in my fucking room.
and rain is beating on my window panes.
i've lost all my writing skills lately.
and now THIS.
weirdweirdweird.
i'm so confused.
cameron was right. i think.
what's going on?
is he kidding?
oh my god.
everything is so different.
everything is so confusing.
it's so cold in my fucking room.
and rain is beating on my window panes.
i've lost all my writing skills lately.
and now THIS.
weirdweirdweird.
i didn't see this coming.
am i happy about it?
i don't know.
ekdgfniendksnfjer.
nodding my head like yeah, moving my hips like yeah.
got my hands up, they're playing my song,
and i know it's going to be okay.

this video, made me love the lyrics to this song.

...
.....
show full post

whateverrrrrr. boreeed.

advisory.
shawty fuck bitch. haha, best period ever.

first period - music connections
watched some ghetto ass movie, like fiddler on the roof? something ghetto.
and then just talked with aldin & griffin, un eventful.

second period - gym
got second place. haha, such an athlete.
AS IF.
whateverrrrrr. boreeed.

advisory.
shawty fuck bitch. haha, best period ever.

first period - music connections
watched some ghetto ass movie, like fiddler on the roof? something ghetto.
and then just talked with aldin & griffin, un eventful.

second period - gym
got second place. haha, such an athlete.
AS IF.
i got like, a tootsie roll?
wtf, i hate those.

third period - algebra
i don't give a fuuuck about this class.
i just make griffin do my homework, that whizz.
and i just make fun of peewee and he just steals my pencil and throws it so i have
to go and get it.
haha, daily routine.
made plans with lars, blew off carson.
i dislike carson, strongly.

free period - lunch.
griffin and i went and got jamba juice.
and got erotic, as usual.
and then the principal gave me a uniform violation,
because my v neck was too low.
and griffin made fun of me.
lmao, as usual.

fourth period - career & technical education intro.
i was sewing with griffin & ethan the entire time.
haha, griffin and i are such a team.
griffin pushes the pedal and i move the paper and do anything actually technical.
haha and every time i put my finger even near the needle, he'll press the presser
foot and i'll
like flip a fuck and fly back in my chair. and then he catches me and him and ethan
find it so funny.
oh god. lmfao.
and right when i get to my very most concentrated, he tickles me.
and then i flip over again.
oh, how i adore this class.
i moved on to thread today! apron on tuesdaaay.

fifth period - art.
this was actually fun. i laughed with emily the whole time.
ohmygodohmygod, this kid who sits next to me.
his name is sebastian. and nonono.
so. he starts singing.
and i realise, he just said ten million fireflies.
FIREFLIES.
so, i look over at him, and i go:
i fucking hate that song.
and he goes:
fireflies by city owl?
HE.
SAID. 
CITY.
OWL.
i just stared at him.
i go,
no. i hate fireflies by OWL CITY.
and he just stares back.
and then he's like,
well at least the song made them famous.
them?
then i had to lecture this "city owl fan" on how much he WISHES in life.
and then i told emily.
and she collapsed.
oh, how we hate fireflies <3

sixth period - health.
talked about tobacco. none of it was convincing at all,
this class sucks. and she had like no reasons why kush is bad for you.
lmfao. poor thing, doesn't know life.
made owl sounds with crosby the entire period until she told me to spit out my gum,
the gum made the sound so much cooler.
fucking bitch ass mother fucking fat ass whore.
haha, oh crosby.

seventh period - english.
nothing. gave miranda her completed drawing, and she about gave birth. 
i've never heard anybody talk about a piece of art for as long as she did.
oh god.
english is so incredibly easy.

...
.....
show full post

10:44pm
Griffin
my god gabby, your beautiful. i never tell you that
10:44pm
Griffin
and your so nice
10:44pm
Gabriella
well of course i'm nice, i'm too scared to be mean
10:44pm
Griffin
cause your incredible gabbzoinkulationitus
10:44pm
Griffin
my god gabby, your beautiful. i never tell you that
10:44pm
Griffin
and your so nice
10:44pm
Gabriella
well of course i'm nice, i'm too scared to be mean
10:44pm
Griffin
cause your incredible gabbzoinkulationitus
10:45pm
Gabriella
i love that word.  and you're marvelous as well, griff.
10:45pm
Griffin
but i bully you.
10:45pm
Gabriella
i'm tough
nuggest bullies me too
nugget*
10:46pm
Griffin
i'll beat her up. ha that would be so awkward
10:46pm
Gabriella
hahaha.
10:46pm
Griffin
but ill stop bullying you
10:46pm
Gabriella
k i'm super duper cheesy, but i don't care, you've really become my best friend.
even if you're a big ass bully.
10:47pm
Griffin
big boy bully griffin
in overalls
and i love you
10:47pm
Gabriella
hahah i died.
IM WEARING THE BEST PANTS. you'd be so jealous.
10:47pm
Griffin
are they.........
EROTIC?
10:48pm
Gabriella
yes.
very.
10:48pm
Griffin
homework sucks
you gotta get a phone.
i need to text you so much
10:49pm
Gabriella
i know, i really do. who doesn't have a phone? i'm so ghetto.
i don't have any homework, because i'm too bad ass for school today.
10:49pm
Griffin
COME TOMORROW
please
10:49pm
Gabriella
WHY
10:50pm
Griffin
cause your so great
10:51pm
Gabriella
IM COMING ANYWAY but thanksssssss. i can't believe i forgot to tell you, i got my
glasses fixed! my non ghetto ones!(:
10:54pm
Gabriella
i can finally take off the ones i've been living in for the past 2 weeks. with
GLITTER on the sides. so ugly. but i'm soo happy.
10:54pm
Griffin
i didnt know
10:55pm
Gabriella
well, that was a waste of typing then. haha.
10:58pm
Griffin
hi.
10:59pm
Gabriella
hi nice to meet you.
11:00pm
Griffin
i'm holland.
11:00pm
Gabriella
i'm denmark.
11:01pm
Griffin
fuck off you dane.
11:01pm
Gabriella
hahahaha. k, i'm passing out.
11:01pm
Griffin
coming tomorrow? <3
11:02pm
Gabriella
who knows. maybe i'll be sexcret bad ass sluffer
or maybe i'll be a baby and come to school
11:02pm
Griffin
yeah we both know whats going to happen, you child.
i love you night
11:03pm
Gabriella
hahaha. true dat.
goodnight grifffffff. <3

...
.....
show full post

i miss this fucking movie.

keeping my mind off the thought of today being the 17th.

eighth period - advisory
checked grades. i'm getting a C in career&tech >>

1st period - music connections
nothing much. sat with griffin, anthony, & aldin. talked about what composer we're
going to do for the report. got erotic with griffin, as usual.
he got a haircut, and it actually looks good. kid can pull off anything, though.

2nd period - fitness
i was late |: which means 20 minutes off the school social on tuesday. i know i
keeping my mind off the thought of today being the 17th.

eighth period - advisory
checked grades. i'm getting a C in career&tech >>

1st period - music connections
nothing much. sat with griffin, anthony, & aldin. talked about what composer we're
going to do for the report. got erotic with griffin, as usual.
he got a haircut, and it actually looks good. kid can pull off anything, though.

2nd period - fitness
i was late |: which means 20 minutes off the school social on tuesday. i know i
sound like a total loser, but it really does suck. school socials are so fun at cms.
best music, just breaking it dowwwwwwn. haha. and qui always does the stanky leg. you
want ghetto? (; oh cms. anyway, we just sat in the yoga room and talked all period.
lame shit.

3rd period - algebra
easy shit, we took a test. i felt really uneasy taking it, which means i'll probably
ace it. whenever i feel really confident about a test, i totally bomb it. but when
the situation is flipped, i ace. i'm weird, idek. kk. and then i read this book and
i had been staring for so long, that when i got up i felt so seriously weird. like,
i kept falling over and anthony had to like carry me down stairs. |: lame.

free period - lunch
ate bread with nugget and griffin and sam and anthony. then went and checked my play
rehersal times, and wrote them on my hand. then just like talked on the phone in the
bathroom with zie.

fourth period - career and technical education intro
i fucking love this class. got erotic with griffin, as usual.
helped him with his elp homework. then finally passed the ghetto sewing test. (: and
ethan helped me sew. he's so adorableeeeee. and idk. just cute. and such a good
sewer, lmfao. i'm actually pretty okay at it. but yeah, i love that class. i just
drink & eat & yell & get erotic and she's so oblivious.

fifth period - art
eh. we like ripped paper. best art ever. except emily and i DIED over everything, as
we do every fifth period. un eventful.

sixth period - health
talked about cigarettes. again. so awkward.

seventh period - english
hate this class. i love english, but she acts as if it's homeroom. even griffin
agrees, he has her for elp. she gives too much homework |: but yeah, just talked to
kent about my typing skillz. he calls me whoosh, because i 'type so fucking fast'.
lmfao.

after classes
went home. watched hard candy and finished art project homework with emily.
well great.

...
.....
show full post

two years ago, on this day,
my mom died.
november 17th.
2007.