Would you even bother to take a look at me?
I'm stuck, in the deadly deadlock,
The reason is that I had to care
Im not moving anywhere
Cuz today Im pretty out of luck.

Thought I had found somoen who could take me out,
Someone I could lean on when I turned around...
I always run into trouble, victim
Of all sorta tough luck....Luck is so extreme
The wave of hope for a new life from the other end of frontier,
THe dawning of a new era for the rest of my life, from the iron barrier
Would you even bother to take a look at me?
I'm stuck, in the deadly deadlock,
The reason is that I had to care
Im not moving anywhere
Cuz today Im pretty out of luck.

Thought I had found somoen who could take me out,
Someone I could lean on when I turned around...
I always run into trouble, victim
Of all sorta tough luck....Luck is so extreme
The wave of hope for a new life from the other end of frontier,
THe dawning of a new era for the rest of my life, from the iron barrier
Can't wait no longer now...The soul is searching for a new beginning
Today...I dont wanna know...I just wanna go...Hit n Run
But there s something
Called Luck which'd leave me nowhere
And the reason is I had to care

Why Am I the victim of the same oppurtunity?
Locked Inside My Prison for somming I did back in '03?
The invisible illumination from invisible iron curtain
Leaves me crazy to get soimwehere
Runaway, from everything that haunts my life like a nightmare
Forget the scar of assaults and abuse
BUt all these hopes will be of no use
Still Im waiting, for the runaway, but where I will end up being is deadlock
Cuz Im pretty outta luck, Aint I?
My hope for a second life will have it's half-life
Survive amongst inevitable curses, endless remorse
For something which hardly had an existence...
Im not moving anywhere....
Cuz I had to care?

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Eyes Hollow with madness to see you cry
Unable to hold you in my arms-a Reality you cant deny
Truth is sore, Reality's a bore
The tears in your eyes makes me crazy
You're aching, you're shattering,
I can see the agony in your eyes,
Everybody is changing, 
But I dont know why.

Beyond comprehension is how to tame
My dreams, I cant dream-of a life in peace
We have lost ourselves, we re too mean
Eyes Hollow with madness to see you cry
Unable to hold you in my arms-a Reality you cant deny
Truth is sore, Reality's a bore
The tears in your eyes makes me crazy
You're aching, you're shattering,
I can see the agony in your eyes,
Everybody is changing, 
But I dont know why.

Beyond comprehension is how to tame
My dreams, I cant dream-of a life in peace
We have lost ourselves, we re too mean
Why did I have to lose it-
Instead of doing it to my hearts content,
Now that I've lost somewhere I belong,
Someplace I loved all along,
Some I could lean on,
No place to go now-No shoulder to cry on
Where 'd I go? I want to go home
But nobody's home-
I lost someone I've craved for all along.

Misery, Take me away not to live
For in this world, I dont have a hive...
Whom I live for, in the run of life
The tears in your eyes throws me into a dizziness of reality
We cant be together-the surreal nympateminity(It's the wrong spelling lol)
It's unbearable to watch you go away...
Never to love me, Hold me once again
The contours of the truth sweeps us into a drain-
The pain in your heart sends me knockin' on hell's door
But nobody's home for me, even there-
I've lost someone I've wanted all along.
Nobody's home-
I've lost somebody I craved for being with all along.

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I wrote this poem a few days back wen I was not goin well with someone. I din
proofread or re-read it-I just wrote on my own So overlook the mistakes in spelling
and rhyme.

It's called Phoenix of Imagination. Or Somewhere Only We Know

I tried to be perfect, but I am not worth it
I never meant to do those things to you,
But you don't  care anymore
In this crucial period, I wish you were here
Kissing me in your dream, Hugging the pillow
Holding me so tight in your arms so I can't go
I wrote this poem a few days back wen I was not goin well with someone. I din
proofread or re-read it-I just wrote on my own So overlook the mistakes in spelling
and rhyme.

It's called Phoenix of Imagination. Or Somewhere Only We Know

I tried to be perfect, but I am not worth it
I never meant to do those things to you,
But you don't  care anymore
In this crucial period, I wish you were here
Kissing me in your dream, Hugging the pillow
Holding me so tight in your arms so I can't go
Have we lost ourselves now?
But somewhere we'll live inside
Somewhere we'll live inside.

Life is hard without your touch; dreaming
Everyday and night, Crying
When I think about the time that are now past, Vindicated
Staring with wt eyes at the deserted memories through the misted
Pan of mirror of memoir, now is sorry the only thing we can say
I miss you so much, cuz in the end it's you
Whom I can cry to, In the times of grief, I could lean upon you

You were the sun to my sky,
Rainbow to the eternal horizon,
Only good thing in my life so rotten
Dreams of the mid-winter midnights,
The phoenix of my imagination, flying high....

There're smiles, tears and fights
But it's the memories that remain deep inside,
Why don't we evaluate something till it's gone
Shouting and screaming at each other all day long
There's someone beside you no matter what
Drowning in love, Sinking in remorse
We'll never get the meaning until it's lost.

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
Being Nititian in different planets,
I wish you were...Hugging the pillow
Holding you teddy bear so tight so your babe cant go,
Away from your touch, your love, so...
Tonight, why don't we go, somewhere only we know
This can't be the end of everything, we know
So tonights I cant wait to go
Somewhere only we know...
Somewhere only we know....

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Everytime I have a crush or stuff like that it's online...I dont know why it always
happens to me. And Im really cyberaddict-I some kinda fancy it so much. Im also
obessed with it. It's great cuz you always get to date great peoples but it sucks
cuz in most of the cases it turns out that you cant even meet. I wonder if there are
anyone like me who's cyberloveobessed lol....Great name for kupika username!

This is something I learnt from the experiences of 06 and first week of 07
GoodBye is the hardest thing to tell.
I had to say goodbye to 4 people who meant a lot of me.....One of my classmate, who
I was supposed to form a band with, My coz with whom I was like BFF, and internet
pal and some other. It sucks.
XoX
Aiden