I waited by the door,
Coat on tight and purse in hand,
It's only five past, but I'm getting antsy,
It's hard to understand

Just why I was so anxious,
But tonight was the big date.
There was such joy and all the such,
So much to anticipate.

It's ten past now, I wait in haste,
Where could he be right now?
I waited by the door,
Coat on tight and purse in hand,
It's only five past, but I'm getting antsy,
It's hard to understand

Just why I was so anxious,
But tonight was the big date.
There was such joy and all the such,
So much to anticipate.

It's ten past now, I wait in haste,
Where could he be right now?
I don't want to know, my thoughts had said,
So he was late... but how?

It's fifteen past, no sign of him,
Where is he? I yelled out.
My once excited smile gone,
Replaced with a sad pout.

It's twenty past, I'm getting mad,
How could he be so late?
It seems he doesn't care about our
Not-so-special date.


Minutes pass, as slow as sand,
My heartbeat not as fast.
My spirits sink, as I then see,
It's o'er an hour past.







http://kupika.com/diarypage.php?id=r495edd6aee53571vs7u

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Remember that every answer should be ONE word! ^^ Enjoy~
If not possible, two words~

1. Where is your cell phone?
Nowhere.

2.eating?
Smarties

3. Your hair?
Messhy!

Remember that every answer should be ONE word! ^^ Enjoy~
If not possible, two words~

1. Where is your cell phone?
Nowhere.

2.eating?
Smarties

3. Your hair?
Messhy!

4. Your mother?
Cleaning

5. Your father?
Store

6. Your favorite thing?
Love

7. Your dream last night?
Random

8. Favorite drink?
Water

9.Your dream car?
Beetle

10. The room you're in?
Hallway

11. Your ex?
Hehe...

12. You fear?
Sickness

14. Where were u last night?
Bedroom

15. What you're not?
Dumb

16. Muffins?
Okay...

17. One of your wish list items?
BLEACH!

19. The last thing you did?
Games

20. What are you wearing?
Clothes ^.^

21. Your TV?
House

22. Your pet or pets?
Virtual

23. Your computer?
Normal

24. Your life?
Regular

25. Your mood?
Impatient

26. Missing someone?
Yah.

28. Your car?
NONE.

29. Your work?
Boring.

31. Like someone?
Duh.

32. Your favorite color?
Black

33. When is the last time you laughed?
Now!

34.bf/gf?
BF

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Fangirl:
Today's for animation,
Watching reruns,
Trying alchemy for nothing!
Play on a DS,
Or a PS2,
To Sasuke from Naruto!
Bo-Bo-Bo!
Yugioh!
To Kenshin!
Redemption!
To alternate dimensions!
Fangirl:
Today's for animation,
Watching reruns,
Trying alchemy for nothing!
Play on a DS,
Or a PS2,
To Sasuke from Naruto!
Bo-Bo-Bo!
Yugioh!
To Kenshin!
Redemption!
To alternate dimensions!
To going to conventions,
Hating pretention,
Fangirl attention!
Not to mention, of course,
Elfin Lied and Escanflowe!
To making bad puns of Ed Elric being short!
Wii sports!
Prince of Tennis courts!
To Pokemon!
Megatron,
To hanging on, With less than 2 HP!
To unmasking Kakashi,
To Gaara's gourd of Sand!

All:
LA VIE JAPAN!

Apollo:
Wait, mister,
Trucy's my sister?

Waiter:
So that's two Monster drinks,
Twelve koala crackers,
Three sushi wrap dinners,
Two bags of dried green peas,
And one plate of tofu rice balls?

Fangirl:
...ew.

Fanboy: 
It tastes just fine!

Fangirl:
If you close your eyes!

Waiter:
And one glass of Ramune,
Any more calls?

All:
Pocky and BAWLS!

Fangirls:
To cold Ramune solf in local F.Y.E.'s,
To Kyo!
To Yuki!
To Honey and Mori!
To Ranma,
To Chronos,
To Nin-and-Tai Jutsu!
To Kubo!
To Ohba!
And Miyazaki, too!
To Baki,
Tamaki,
To Kenpachi Zaraki! 
To Sannin!
To Canon!
Invasion of the Sound Nin!
To Yoshi,
To Roshi,
To Mogi, and the crew!
To Luna,
To Suna,
To Samurai Champloo!
Sora, Kairi, Riku, and the King!
Abarai, Ema Skye!
To Hellsing!
To Gaara,
The Naras,
Aang and Katara, too!

Why Kadaj, Loz, and Yazoo,
Gave up reunion,
To form a family band!
LA VIE JAPAN!

Apollo:
Oh brother,
Lamiroir's my MOTHER?

Fanboys:
Fanflash!

Fangirls:
Prosecutors,
Evildoers,
Final Fantasy,
Hot bishounen,
Aqua and Ven,
Ben Ten!
Klavier Gavin!



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Leave me,
Decieve me,
Try me,
Cry for me,
Start me,
Stop me,
Pick me,
Drop me.

Hurt me,
Fill me, 
Kiss me,
Leave me,
Decieve me,
Try me,
Cry for me,
Start me,
Stop me,
Pick me,
Drop me.

Hurt me,
Fill me, 
Kiss me,
Kill me.




So,
It's over.

The remains were gone,
The mess was cleared away.
The air was cold, dead.
Nothing left to look at,
But the cold, dead tiles that covered the floor.

I held the scalpel,
Cold, dead,
In between my hands.
Gently, I pressed the cold, dead edge
Over my hand,
Not enough to cut,
But just enough to bring me back down.

I couldn't stay there much longer.
That cold, dead room was closing around me,
Like a dark cloud,
It swam around me, 
Freezing me,
Killing me.

I ran from the room.

The glass doors, cold and dead, swung shut.

Outside the ward,
It was alive.
The figures clad in green
Rushed by like a swarm of bees,
Back and forth,
Back and forth,
From room to room,
Ward to ward,
Visiting the dead and dying.

It almost hurt to keep myself steady,
Walking at a slow pace.
Now that he was gone, 
The operation finished,
I had nothing to do.

Except paperwork.

I hated paperwork.

I saw my coworkers give me apologetic glances 
As I walked by.
Nice try,
They said,
Without a word coming from their lips.

All I could say back was,
"I'm sorry."

I couldn't be blamed,
I thought. 
It was only my first operation.
I twirled the scalpel in between my fingers,
It was the only friend I had now.

Well...
Said the back of my head,
Your only friend?
But I pushed the thought out of my mind.
Even though I wanted to think of the person
Waiting for me
Two halls away, 
I didn't.
I wasn't in the mood for any comfort or sympathy.
Ten to one, he'd probably fire me 
For the whole ordeal anyway.

Nevertheless,
I saw a familiar white coated figure
Walk up to me.
He stared me in the eyes and said
He wants you to come to his office, ASAP.

Fine,
I answered Wilson, a sad look masking both our faces.

...I'm sorry.
He whispered.

I know.

He walked away.

Sighing
From the deepest recess of my lungs,
I let my legs carry me
Slowly
Down 
The
Hall.


I reached the glass doors.
Why were all the doors
In this flippin' hospital 
Made of glass?
I asked myself.
No reply.

I lightly
Brought my fist up to the door
And knocked.

...
Come in.

The gruff voice was normal for him,
I guess. 
I pushed the transparent doors open,
And stepped into the room
That housed the man
That was my guardian and demon,
My savior and destroyer,
My love and hate.

He was sitting at his desk, 
That usual scowl intact on his features.
I smiled,
Knowing this would be the same old doctor that
I dealed with every day.

But,
Suddenly,
His face grew even darker still.
This was not going to be 
As normal as I thought.

I heard,
He murmured,
About the operation.

I guess...I should clean out my desk...
I answered quietly.

No.

...what?
I said in disbelief.

No, never.

But you have every reason to fire me!
I exclaimed.
I thought you said I was gone
If I messed up anything again!

It wasn't your fault.
He said.

Then whose was it?

Mine.

...yours?

I shouldn't have let you do this.
You weren't ready.

I was perfectly ready, I just-

Screwed up. I know.

I hesitated. A look,
Of pure confusion came to rest 
On my face.
...then why do you still want me here?

Because, isn't it obvious?

He took a few hesitant steps toward me,
His eyes locked onto mine.

Cuddy told me,
He said,
About why you botched up the operation.

...
I couldn't answer.
It was obvious why I messed up.

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I love you.

...

I know I shouldn't tell you this now, before the big operation...
But,
I love you.

No.

...what?

I don't love you.

...

Thank you for your time, doctor.

Kat, don't-

I need to go to the operating room.

Kat, wait!

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That's why you messed it up, right?
He said.

...
One second... you tell me you hate me...

My voice was shaking with fear

The next second..you tell me that I mean everything to you....

My fists clench.

You tell me...that if I botched up this operation...you would never see me again...

Tears came.

And now... you have the nerve...to tell me that I can stay...

I was crying.

WHY?
I shouted.
WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS...TO ME!?

...
He couldn't answer.
All he could do,
Was walk up to me,
And wrap my arms around his shoulders.

Kat...I'm so sorry...
I heard him whisper.

You... just said... you're...sorry?
I said inquisitively, hiccupping from the sobbing,
I've...never...heard you say...that to anyone...

You do mean everything to me,
He mumbled,
You mean more to me 
Than every operation that has failed,
Every life that has been lost,
Every death that has occured in this hospital.
Through it all,
You kept me alive,
You kept me going,
No matter the many costs we've paid.

My eyes met his again.

...
Who are you,
I muttered,
And what did you do with Greg?

Hmph,
He grunted,
That cocky manner 
Coming back into his voice.
I saw that familiar hardness 
Return o his eyes,
And I could tell 
That the moment of weakness had past.

Well,
Shall we go do the paperwork?
He asked.

Eurgh...
Not
Now.

Fine, then,
He murmured.
You can go. 

I walked over to the doors,
But before I was able to grasp the handle,
I felt a hand on my shoulder. 

So...
He said.
Dinner, hospital cafeteria, at eight?

Sure.
I said.
And quickly,
Before he could react,
I leaned in,
And gave him a small kiss
On his cheek.

The look of surprise
Was the last thing I saw
Before I darted out the door
Back into the hall.

With a quiet giggle, 
I walked back to my office.
Checking the clock,
It said 7:49.

Maybe he wasn't that bad...after all. 


Leave me,
Decieve me,
Try me,
Cry for me,
Start me,
Stop me,
Pick me,
Drop me.

Hurt me,
Fill me, 
Kiss me,
Kill me.





(Oh my gosh...this was probably the most random and pointless thing I have ever
written.
Dedicated to GH)

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Well, they had told me that I was a mental psych ward,
Said that I would never be around today,
I can't express my thoughts because they aren't my own!
And they tell me that I'm crazy, but
It's all my game to play!

I hear his voice,
Voice,
Whisper through the day,
Hear it through the night,
It's quite a fright,
It never goes away.
Well, they had told me that I was a mental psych ward,
Said that I would never be around today,
I can't express my thoughts because they aren't my own!
And they tell me that I'm crazy, but
It's all my game to play!

I hear his voice,
Voice,
Whisper through the day,
Hear it through the night,
It's quite a fright,
It never goes away.
I hear his voice,
Voice,
VOICE.
Hear it now, and see 
It never was my choice.

Appreciated as a true conundrum,
All day long I hear the voices talk to me,
Don't come to close, else you will maybe hear them too!
And they tell me that I'm crazy, but
Someday you all will see!

I hear his voice,
Voice,
Whisper through the day,
Hear it through the night,
It's quite a fright,
It never goes away.
I hear his voice,
Voice,
VOICE.
Hear it now, and see 
It never was my choice.


(...I wish he would stop talking to me in the middle of the night. He is quite
annoying, especially when he yells. Imagine having a guy, talking not into, but IN
your ear...sigh...)

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And, well, the end is near now,
And I'm still living,
Soon to get what I deserve,
The ending of my life.

And will I get to heaven?
I'll be here waiting
Soon to get what I deserve,
The ending of my life,

I just hope you know, my dear,

And, well, the end is near now,
And I'm still living,
Soon to get what I deserve,
The ending of my life.

And will I get to heaven?
I'll be here waiting
Soon to get what I deserve,
The ending of my life,

I just hope you know, my dear,

I'm Dead!
I swear, I'm finally dead!
No one will think of my dying day,
And probably, they won't have much to say,
I'm Dead!
There's no more voice in my head!
I think I'll never get along
Up there when I attempt to sing this song, 
I'm Dead!
Dead!

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Everybody, SCREAM!

...

'Cuz it's mah BIRTHDAY! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

*does funky chicken*
*stirs the puddin'*
*mashes the taters*
*runnin' man*
*robot*
*cha-cha slide*
Everybody, SCREAM!

...

'Cuz it's mah BIRTHDAY! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

*does funky chicken*
*stirs the puddin'*
*mashes the taters*
*runnin' man*
*robot*
*cha-cha slide*
*cotton-eye joe*
*hare hare yukai*
*Motteke Sailor Fuku*



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Yay!


So far,

I've gotten two presents: A Charlie Bone book, and the Little Mermaid Broadway
Musical soundtrack (that show is climbing up into my top five favorites!)

Kacie has mysteriously made a present for me that I'm flippin' DYING to open. She's
been taunting me with it for the past four days...(gonna kills her if it turns out
to be a lunk of coal!)


Erm, anyways,

Thanks to all my pals out there!

Also,

Today is the day that me and my boyfriend, Ryan, met. So yippeeeee!



Anyways,

HAPPY B-DAY TO MOI!!!!YAYZORZLEETROFLCOPTROMGWTDVCRBBQ!!!!!

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