Most recent Public diary entries by Hikati:
Sunday, 6 February 2011
07:45:32 PM (GMT)
I've decided to tell the truth, so here goes:
I genuinely hate myself. I walk around, thinking or acting like im a good and decent
person, but i'm not. thoughts float around through my head, hurtful things that no
one should ever think.
I'm a hypocrite. I yell at my friends when they cut, yet i cut, and i think ever day
about where i would cut next, where i could hide it always. i yell at my friends when
they say theyre fat and wont eat, yet i call myself fat all the time, and have
decided that i wont eat. I yell at my friends when they tell me they have suicidal
thoughts, yet i think about suicide every day.
I hurt everyone around me. I cut myself, and those who say they love me, it hurts
them. i've cut because of certain people, and from that i broke her heart. I think
and say hurtful things, even when I know itll hurt someone.
Monday, 27 December 2010
05:34:53 PM (GMT)
ok, i know this is really stupid, but i am actually really upset by this. so my
sister got the new ipod nano for christmas, shes 18. then she found out it doesnt
play video, and so she wanted a different one. now she got to go get a brand new ipod
touch..... well ive wanted one for seriously 2 and a half years now and ive never
been able to get one. her reasoning why its fair is cuz "you got the newer one last
year." i have the ipod nano with the camera, and its a nice ipod and im pleased with
it. but the only reason i got a new one was because my pervious one broke, and not
from something i did. it just cracked randomly, so there was nothing i could do. my
sister however gets a new ipod because she lost it in the park at her college becuase
she put it in an open pocket in her backpack...entirely her fault. and im not mad
that she gets an ipod, im just annoyed its a touch cuz ive wanted one for sooooo
long. and all of my friends have one, and every christmas my facebook feed is filled
Tuesday, 30 November 2010
11:16:27 PM (GMT)
[x] I like skinny jeans
[x] Music is my life.
[x] I write poetry/song lyrics.
[x ] My hair covers part of my face.
 I wear band shirts.
[x] I know who Jeffree Star is.
[ x] I wear/wore converse.
[ ] I wear/wore vans
[x] I wear/have worn eyeliner
[ ] I listen to Saves The Day, Chiodos, Thursday and/or Gym Class
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|WHO YOU REALLY ARE (DON"T CHEAT)||Category: (general)|
Friday, 9 July 2010
08:14:31 PM (GMT)
COPY, PASTE,Don't look at the bottom before you do the thing or it
Which color is better red, black, green, blue, or yellow?
What is your first initial?
What month were you born in?
Which shade do you like more,black or white
Wednesday, 30 June 2010
02:46:24 PM (GMT)
Post this and watch the answers you get sent back to you in your comments or
-1= UGLY as HELL
0= not ugly but not cute either
1= almost okay
Wednesday, 9 June 2010
04:28:49 PM (GMT)
im so sorry to everyone whom ive ever hurt. i.....im just so sorry, and i want you
to know that. and jordan, to u im especially sorry. im sorry i broke your heart, im
sorry i hated you, that i made fun of u, and everything. im sorry for being such a
hypocrite, in the past and now. i know, im really terrible, especially after
everything ive done, but still, i ask for your forgivness. and i just wanted you to
know that i still love you. im such a hypocrite, not being able to get over you, even
when i told you countless times to get over me. im sorry, and i understand now how
hard it truly is. and i know now that i was never over you. and i want to say, i will
never forget you. no matter what ive said in the past or may say in the future, or
what you think, i will always rememeber you. im sad that, well it seems like youve
forgoten me now, that ive been thrust out of your life for forever. and i dont want
that. but im being selfish. i have to let you live your life, i have to let you go so
|Guy Issues...HELP PLEASE!!!!!||Category: (general)|
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
08:56:03 PM (GMT)
Ok, so lately, I've been having some major guy crisies. But, before i get into all
of that, don't yell at me if I start spelling things wrong. ok?lol. anyways, I'm
gonna get started, but i warn you, this is veryyyyy long.
So, there is a lot of background info, but i'm going to TRY to be brief. I met this
guy named Jordan in the 4th grade, and we went out. Then things happened, i broke up
with him and broke his heart. Then, he liked me all through the 5th and 6th grade,
all the while saying i didn't like him back. Then, in the 7th grade, i fell for him
again, and dated him again. I broke up with him again, once again breaking his heart.
he then told me he didn't like and me, and got all these girlfriends, and no matter
how much i didn't want to, i felt jealous. well, now, he told me he has always loved
me, and i do love him back. well, that was the briefest i could make the background