Sunday, 1 November 2009
10:27:24 PM (GMT) Well! my life is fucked up now...
i am majorly depressed.
ive cried A LOT! lately, ive had several breakdowns recently....
1.my grades are horrible and i feel like an idiot because im so depressed i have no
motivation
2.mom thinks im doing drugs because ive recently gotten a sort of life and have been
gone most weekends with friends
3.mom took my phone because she says im suspicious and shit like that
4.my birth mother has recently began contacting me acting like everything is just
fine, and the past never happened, and shes been there for me my whole life
im confused about how to react, what to say, what to do, who to go to for help
Well! my life is fucked up now...
i am majorly depressed.
ive cried A LOT! lately, ive had several breakdowns recently....
1.my grades are horrible and i feel like an idiot because im so depressed i have no
motivation
2.mom thinks im doing drugs because ive recently gotten a sort of life and have been
gone most weekends with friends
3.mom took my phone because she says im suspicious and shit like that
4.my birth mother has recently began contacting me acting like everything is just
fine, and the past never happened, and shes been there for me my whole life
im confused about how to react, what to say, what to do, who to go to for help
my mom that i live with is no help, everything pisses her off....
I have lately been thinking of suicide....
i try not to and i hate to but when im having one of my breakdowns i think of it and
how it would be and if anyone would care. I also find my self wondering why anyone
cares about me and why people would/could love me. I feel like a complete failure at
everything i do and i hate this feeling.
I need help...from anyone! friends..strangers..therapists...doctors. i dont care i
need help...my family is no help at all and i feel alone, confused, and sad
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