My older sister just came into the room, and said that I am on the
computer too much and I need to get a real life. :[ I feel like a loser right now.
But, who could I hang out with? I don't have a way to drive anywhere, none of my
friends are in walking distance, and Ashley and Josh won't take me anywhere without
guilt-tripping me about it. Also, the friends that I do want to see Ashley won't
take me there because she hates them. :[

...sorry, I'm crying a little. Anyways, I feel like the only people who I'm really
good friends with are online. I feel like Ashley hates me, I feel like everyone
hates me.

I'm sorry if this is coming off sad, but I guess I've cracked. Could someone please
My older sister just came into the room, and said that I am on the
computer too much and I need to get a real life. :[ I feel like a loser right now.
But, who could I hang out with? I don't have a way to drive anywhere, none of my
friends are in walking distance, and Ashley and Josh won't take me anywhere without
guilt-tripping me about it. Also, the friends that I do want to see Ashley won't
take me there because she hates them. :[

...sorry, I'm crying a little. Anyways, I feel like the only people who I'm really
good friends with are online. I feel like Ashley hates me, I feel like everyone
hates me.

I'm sorry if this is coming off sad, but I guess I've cracked. Could someone please
talk to me on aim, yim, or msn right now?

aim: bellamarion
msn: bellamarion
yim: hana_chan_4ever

-Bella

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I'm going to list what I did all day yesterday in small snippets.

On the last day of 08, I:

-woke up (not really)

-ate breakfast while still asleep

-choked on bread when I woke up

-got onto computer

I'm going to list what I did all day yesterday in small snippets.

On the last day of 08, I:

-woke up (not really)

-ate breakfast while still asleep

-choked on bread when I woke up

-got onto computer

-saw that Missy used the bathroom on my carpet DX

-cleaned it up

-was on computer for about an hour

-saw that Missy used the bathroom on my carpet again DX

-got yelled at by brother for not walking her

-had to get off computer

-did some stupid chores

-watched Veronica Mars

-watched Underdog while eating lunch

-watched Veronica Mars some more while waiting for party

-took shower and got dressed

-did hair

-got yelled at by sister that I looked ugly

-redid hair

-got into car

-drove for 40 minutes to Charlie's house to pick him up

-dealt with Ash calling him a lush for bringing beer

-drove another hour to Charles' house (with 5 acres of land XD)

- dealt with freezing cold when I got out of car

-introducted to like 6 people

-didn't remember their names minutes later

-went inside

-ate some snacks from table

-went to trampolline

-jumped on trampoline

-went back inside

-ate some more snacks

-watched Extreme Makeover:Home Edition with Spanish Subtitles

-recognized some of the words

-rewarded myself with more snacks

-played with Charles' son with his lightsabers

-babysitted Charles' daughter Ali. She is so cute.

-ate my Boca "hamburger"

-got shot in the head with a nurf gun by my little sister

-tattletaled and told my older sister XD

-ate a cookie

-watched Charles beat Josh severly on Halo 3

-listened to Josh and Charlie bicker about how they would win if they were playing
Gears of War

-got handed the remote and had to play Halo 3

-lost badly

-ate 6 more cookies in depression xD

-watched fireworks from window

-got pictures taken by their xmas tree

-ate some more snacks

-raced three 7 year olds 

-won the race

-ate cookies in appreciation XD

-missed the ball drop

-ate some more snacks

-dealt with Josh and the Charlies talk about film stuff (good band name?)

-drove an hour to drop off Charlie

-drove 40 minutes home

-had to give Ashley dog food bowls

-had to walk Missy (by now it's almost 3 am)

-went to bed at 4

And then I woke up at 6 to walk dogs. DX

That was my New Years.

-Bella


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My older sister Ashley told me that her friend Scott wanted to take me to this
stupid school dance, but he said he didn't want to because I was boring and ugly.


So, yeah. What a raise in my self esteem. I guess I'm going stag to the couples
dance for the...was going to say for a certain number in a row, but let's be honest.
I've never had a date. D:

Later.

-Bella

Hey everyone. I was talking with my friend on aim, and it turned south. See what
happened. She's italicized.

(03:33:29 PM) Bella: How are you?

(03:33:40 PM) Lindsay: HYPER

(03:35:23 PM) Lindsay: watcha doin?

(03:35:36 PM) Bella: on kupika still :D


Hey everyone. I was talking with my friend on aim, and it turned south. See what
happened. She's italicized.

(03:33:29 PM) Bella: How are you?

(03:33:40 PM) Lindsay: HYPER

(03:35:23 PM) Lindsay: watcha doin?

(03:35:36 PM) Bella: on kupika still :D

(03:35:45 PM) Lindsay: haha

(03:35:59 PM) Bella: go on

(03:36:03 PM) Bella: it is fun

(03:36:04 PM) Bella: :D

(03:36:15 PM) Lindsay: *sighs* okay

(03:42:15 PM) Bella: yay

(03:42:30 PM) Lindsay: and then i got off lol

(03:42:37 PM) Bella: jerk butt 

(03:42:40 PM) Bella: go back on 

(03:42:43 PM) Bella: pwease?

(03:42:47 PM) Bella: people will comment your stories

(03:42:50 PM) Bella: and poems

(03:42:51 PM) Bella: and songs

(03:42:54 PM) Bella: and whatnot

(03:43:20 PM) Lindsay: i need to finish cleaning my room... and its weird,
sry

(03:43:28 PM) Bella: D:

(03:43:55 PM) Lindsay: i don't really like it, idk why, i like LJ and IJ
better

(03:44:32 PM) Bella: what's ij?

(03:44:43 PM) Lindsay: insane journal

(03:45:03 PM) Bella:  Why don't you like it?

(03:46:13 PM) Lindsay: idk... i just like other things better, its kind of like
anime and stuff, and i'm not that big of a fan of that either

(03:46:47 PM) Bella: although there are people there who like anime, it isn't a site
based on anime. It's just that each person has a character.

(03:46:56 PM) Bella: not character, more like how gaia is

(03:46:58 PM) Lindsay: yeah its like gaia

(03:47:07 PM) Bella: but that's all

(03:47:10 PM) Bella: you just make that

(03:47:19 PM) Bella: it's not like they force you to like anime

(03:47:26 PM) Bella: there are people on here who hate anime

(03:47:53 PM) Lindsay: eh... its just not something i like, thats all

(03:48:49 PM) Bella: why did you make one then if you weren't planning on using it?

(03:49:05 PM) Lindsay: cuz you made me!

(03:49:46 PM) Bella: I was joking. That's why the jk was present many times. If you
felt that strongly against it, then you should have told me.,

(03:52:05 PM) Lindsay: i liked it at first... i just don't like it now lol

(03:52:21 PM) Bella: What first?  The first five minutes?

(03:52:38 PM) Lindsay: oh idk SHUTUP

(03:53:12 PM) Bella: Calm down, Lins. :D I was just wondering why you never got on.
If you don't like it, you can just delete the account.

(03:54:04 PM) Lindsay: i was joking around, the shutup is supposed to be a funny
HAHA

(03:54:41 PM) Bella: Yes, t'was hilarious 

(03:54:48 PM) Lindsay: you goof

(03:57:06 PM) Bella: aww, thanks *hug* lol


So, it all got better, but still. How do you feel about kupika?

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Thanks for reading. I hope you like this next installment of Rehab! 

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It was my first day at Spring Meadows, and I don't think I was feeling that well to
begin with. I thought I was going to be okay. I thought those years of college would
prepare me to help these people. But, only one thought sprang to mind, and it wasn't
very helpful.

I think I'm going to vomit. 

Pacing around my office, I felt like a fake. What do I know about these girls? I've
Thanks for reading. I hope you like this next installment of Rehab! 

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It was my first day at Spring Meadows, and I don't think I was feeling that well to
begin with. I thought I was going to be okay. I thought those years of college would
prepare me to help these people. But, only one thought sprang to mind, and it wasn't
very helpful.

I think I'm going to vomit. 

Pacing around my office, I felt like a fake. What do I know about these girls? I've
never experienced with they've gone through, and I pray that I never will. Drugs,
alcohol, eating disorders, psychosis...how will I connect with them? What terrible
event happened to me? Nothing.  These young women have experienced more than 
I ever will. Courage, strength of will, tenacity. I just can't compare.

That was when my ego took over. Are you kidding me? You think you aren't as good
as these people because your life wasn't horrible? I quickly shut that voice
out. I could not show any negativity today. My job, as counselor to these young
girls, was to help them become upstanding members of the community. Not sit here
in my bathroom-sized office complaining I'm not as underpriveleged as...

That was when my boss came in. I inwardly cringed. She wasn't ugly, far from it, but
she was an intense woman. Every stare felt like a glare, every sentence a whispered
threat. I subconsciously turned my body away from her, eager to get whatever she was
hear for over with.

But, fate would give me a good hand. "The girls are here, Ms. Greene." I shivered. I
quickly looked up, and she saw it. Oh crap.

I tried to fake smile and cover up the whole thing. "Thank you, Mrs. Ashelle. But
please, call me by my first name." Please don't do it, please don't do it...

"No thank you, Ms. Greene. In business relationships, people don't call each other
by their given name. It's unseemly." She sniffed a little, and I felt like I just
blew up a national building. 

She opened the door for me, and I quickly scampered out. 

I hope that these girls aren't as strange as Mrs. Ashelle...

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She wants me to put it up... 


[IMG]http://kupika.com/pics/2008/12/28/fv_cbfhqzrprj.jpg[/IMG]

They found me.

The thought pulsed through me with every step I took. They found me, they found
me, they found me. Running without seeing, running without knowing, my favorite
kind. Anything was better than feeling. Because if I felt what was going through me
at this moment, I would lose.

But thinking anything right now was a risk that shouldn't be taken. And no matter
how heavy my breathe may be, how cramped my legs, I couldn't give up. Not now. I had
been fighting too long to survive His rampage, and now that he's gone I can't break
down. Even though the thought of fainting, or crying, or screaming kept entering my
mind with the force that He used on me since I was taken.
They found me.

The thought pulsed through me with every step I took. They found me, they found
me, they found me. Running without seeing, running without knowing, my favorite
kind. Anything was better than feeling. Because if I felt what was going through me
at this moment, I would lose.

But thinking anything right now was a risk that shouldn't be taken. And no matter
how heavy my breathe may be, how cramped my legs, I couldn't give up. Not now. I had
been fighting too long to survive His rampage, and now that he's gone I can't break
down. Even though the thought of fainting, or crying, or screaming kept entering my
mind with the force that He used on me since I was taken.

And now, when I thought it was all over, they found me again. It didn't even matter
that I was ahead of them. They would find me. With every slower step, with every
spasm of pain, they were one more step closer to me than before. I would never win.

Suddenly, like a haven just for me, a tall stately building was at the end of the
path. Creme-colored, with dark mahogany lining, it felt like a perfect hiding place.
My perfect hiding place. It didn't matter what it was. I was raised to be able to
adapt to any surroundings. This would just be another act. Only this act would save
me, Heather Brown, from Death's coming.

I ran into the building after what seemed like hours but was really only minutes,
and looked around with instinct. A young woman in a white nurse's outfit muttered
something, but I didn't notice. By then I had already passed out.

That was my first day before I moved into Spring Meadows Rehab Clinic.

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Do you like it? This is going to be, I hope, my first novel.

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