its weird.
this feeling.
this emptiness.
i sound like im always whining.
about my love life especially.

strike that.
underline that.
that needs to be bold.
no
go back.
italicize that.
its weird.
this feeling.
this emptiness.
i sound like im always whining.
about my love life especially.

strike that.
underline that.
that needs to be bold.
no
go back.
italicize that.

yeah.
now we're talking.

*forward*
its weird.
this feeling.
of fullness. 
i sound like im gloating.
about my life especially.

but i cant help it.
i love my friends.
to death.

no need to 
strike that out.

just do me a little favor:
underline it.
bold it.
and 
italicize it.

 because i mean what i meant.
<3 YEW GUYZ!

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i hate him.
this time i mean it.

so what?
he cheated?
pshhh.
so what?
i caught him?
pshhh.

so what?
he cheated on me?
i hate him.
this time i mean it.

so what?
he cheated?
pshhh.
so what?
i caught him?
pshhh.

so what?
he cheated on me?
pshhh.

and it gets even better for me.
so what?
he cheated on me with my best friend.

so what?
it doesnt matter.
because this scandel has been going on for three.
                                                                              
freaking.
                                                                                    
       months.
so what?
yeah.
i hate him.
and my best friend.

pshhh.
SO WHAT?

it doesnt matter now.
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so i saw you on the wall.
leaning against something.
and then i see her.
her.
her of all people.

and when she sees me.
she stops.
and he stops.
and look at what shes staring at.
then he freezes.
and i just smile and wave.
i turn around and go.
but before i vanish i laugh out loud:

"i hope you guys burn in hell"

i let out a laugh.
a cheery laugh.

pshhh.
so what?

my hearts broken.
pshhh.
so....
...what.

i cry inside when i pass them.
their holding hands.
their cuddling.
their kissing.

but i just smile and wave.
and when they see me smile and wave.
their stares go down.
they seperate at once.

they make it look like theyre sorry.
but i smile and laugh.

im dying inside.

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Today i saw him.
Laughing along.
By my side.
We're buddies.
Best buddies i should say.
Since kindergarten. 

Yet.
Since kindergarten.
I've loved him for so long.

I love him so much.
Today i saw him.
Laughing along.
By my side.
We're buddies.
Best buddies i should say.
Since kindergarten. 

Yet.
Since kindergarten.
I've loved him for so long.

I love him so much.
My heart aches.

I love his eyes.
They're so blue.
But with a shade of green.

I love the way he laughs.
So innocent.
So unforgettable.

I love how every
                      Single time
He laughs.
He shows those cute round dimples.

I love how he always talk to me.
I love how easier it is for me to talk to him
Rather than to other guys.

I love him.
I crave his arms.
I crave his kiss.
I crave his hands.
                     Holding onto mine.

I love how if I ever fall.
                                 He'll be able 
                                                 And willing 
To.
     Capture.
                   Me.

Until that day comes.
I'll just play along.
Laughing.
Because to him.
                         I'm laughing.
                                             Having no care about life.
But really.
                I'm dying inside.

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red orange and gold colors stretched across the sky,
white clouds looked as if millions of cotton balls glued together.
you could see the sun peaking out from the distance--playing hide and seek with your
eye.
you could be mad or glad or happy or sad when you see the sunrise
but no matter what, you stare in awe and inhale that very moment.
in that moment, time stops--for just those few seconds
and you you forget everything
remembering only the good and forgiving the bad.
you're glad to be alive--

as the sun rise.

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i hate him so much.
i just hate him.

but why do i hate him?

i hate him because i love him.
i hate him because i know ill never have him.
i hate him because hes my best friend.
i hate him because that'll be the only thing ill ever to him.
i hate him because he doesn't even know.
i hate him because ill never be his.
i hate him because he'll never be mine.
i hate him so much.
i just hate him.

but why do i hate him?

i hate him because i love him.
i hate him because i know ill never have him.
i hate him because hes my best friend.
i hate him because that'll be the only thing ill ever to him.
i hate him because he doesn't even know.
i hate him because ill never be his.
i hate him because he'll never be mine.

so while im hating him,
he's
over there
or over here

flirting with other girls.
girls that are prettier than me
or smarter
or funnier
or better
               than me.

but i don't care.
because i hate him so much,
i love him.

and he'll never know.
because i'll be standing here
talking to him or
laughing along or
smiling at him 

pretending he's just my best friend
and nothing more.
but he IS my best friend.

so until he figures out what or who i am to him,
i'll be 
laughing
smiling 
-and-
playing along.

until then my friends...

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