Emilie. Twenty-five. Musician.
"I'd rather not care, than to be aware."
~Type O Negative, "Anesthesia"
"Your telltale heart is beating. Unstable minds descend. I'm through
trying to reach you. I am The Emptiness."
"The sun won't shine here. It never did. And when it rains, it fucking
pours... But I think I like it..."
~Bring Me The Horizon, "Doomed"
"You never see the lonely me at all."
~Placebo, "Without You I'm Nothing"
"I buried myself alive on the inside so I could shut you out and make
you go away for a long time."
~The Used, "Buried Myself Alive"
"I still remember the world from the eyes of a child. Slowly, those
feelings were clouded by what I know now."
~Evanescence, "Fields Of Innocence"
"I hope the stars still spell out your name where you are."
~Alesana, "Early Mourning"
"There's a special place in Hell for all the broken hearts like me."
~The Funeral Portrait, "Casanova (C'est La Vic) (The Incident)"
"Hush. It's okay. Dry your eyes. Soulmate, dry your eyes, 'cause
soulmates never die."
~Placebo, "Sleeping With Ghosts"
"Do you know that I'm lost, and you left me here on my own? Songs live
on, but I'm dancing alone. Where is my lullaby?"
~Alesana, "Dancing Alone"
"'cause it's a great big white world, and we are drained of our
colors. We used to love ourselves. We used to love one another."
~Marilyn Manson, "Great Big White World"
"Even though you're gone, I know you're counting stars. I think I'm
~The Funeral Portrait, "All My Circuits (Anger)"
"Whatever doesn't kill you is gonna leave a scar."
~Marilyn Manson, "Leave A Scar"
"I can't fear death no longer; I've died a thousand times."
~Bring Me The Horizon, "Hospitals For Souls"
"I would do anything to bring him back to you, because if you got him
back, I would get back the friend that I once knew."
~Bring Me The Horizon, "Suicide Season"
"And I tried, god knows I tried. But there's nothing you can do to
change my mind. And I don't enjoy to watch you crumble. I don't enjoy
to watch you cry."
~Placebo, "Begin The End"
"You know I'm grateful. I appreciate. But, in fact it's baleful how I
suck you dry."
"You found the strength to end your life. As you did, so shall I."
~Type O Negative, "Bloody Kisses (A Death In The Family)"
"Please don't be lonely when I'm gone. I've been so sad for far too
long. And as I gently slip away, this song will always stay."
~Asking Alexandria, "Gone"
"Close your eyes. See the light. Darling, there's no need to fight.
Then the man grabs my hand, says, 'You're going nowhere.'"
~Megosh, "Fast Times at I.C.U."
"Hide in the shadows, this is where I belong. Here in the dark I will
"We might have friction sometimes, and I know, I'm a selfish person.
Believe me, sweetie, I understand completely. Just know that you make
~November Blessing, "Storms"
"And then you'll see that we knew love existed all along; just never
looked because we thought we were wrong."
~November Blessing, "Come and Find Me"
"Love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife."
~The Used, "I'm A Fake"
"Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind where feelings mean
~The Used, "Yesterday's Feelings"
"Brothers and sisters, I'm right here with you. 'cause everyone's got
one; a story to kill me. I'm so apathetic in my resentment... Living,
loving, knowing not..."
~The Used, "Take It Away"
"If there's a chance that she's alive then cut me open. I need to see.
I need to breathe. Another day in this place... I'll be broken. I'm
getting closer each and every time..."
~Alesana, "Ciao, Bella"
"Imprisoned beneath the world, where the soulless dwell, lies a place
that the damned call home. A place where the virtuous hide in fear. A
place we see only in our nightmares. A place where the sun is
~Alesana, "And Now For The Final Illusion"
"I miss counting the stars, and I miss the way you kiss me. I miss the
way you touch me. I miss calling you mine. Baby, you know who I am,
and there's nobody I'd rather dance with in the moonlight. I just
wanna go back."
~Alesana, "Fatal Optimist"
"She's a myth that I have to believe in. All I need to make it real is
one more reason. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do when
she makes me sad."
~Slipknot, "Vermillion, Pt. 2"
"So if you love me let me go, and run away before I know. My heart is
just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there. Deliver me
into my fate. If I'm alone, I cannot hate. I don't deserve to have
you. My smile was taken long ago... If I can change, I hope I never
"My heart gets broken every time we fall. There's only so long I can
fake it. 'cause you let me go, babe. We could have had it all. We had
a chance... I thought we'd make it. 'cause I gave my heart, you had to
break it. God give me strength, I just can't take it anymore."
~Cher, "With Or Without You"
"Silence, like a cancer, grows."
~Disturbed, "The Sound Of Silence"
"A beautiful soul has left the earth, washed up on the shore. And they
couldn't help but wonder who she was."
~The Funeral Portrait, "Meanwhile"
"Oh how I've longed for silence. You were calling for evening. You
won't believe the year I've had."
~The Funeral Portrait, "The Optimist (Depression)"
"Reader, oh reader, it pains me to say the ink on the pages, the blood
in my veins. The story can't go on without you. The story can't go on
without you. Reader, oh reader, I'm slipping away. I'm losing the will
to survive one more day. The story can't go on without you. The story
can't go on without you."
~The Funeral Portrait, "Wax Romantic (Acceptance)"
"I handed you a knife and my heart."
"The ambulance arrived to find that no one had survived, save for just
~The Funeral Portrait, "Appeal To Reason"
"Please try to say more carefully that you no longer need me. This
back and forth is killing me."
~Alesana, "This Conversation Is Over"
"We'll let the embers serve as the only memory of last days... So long
~Alesana, "Daggers Speak Louder Than Words"
"Were the last words that I wrote you enough to tell you that in my
death, the light that shone through my painful darkness was a blinding
vision of your eternal smile?"
~Alesana, "Last Three Letters"
"She longs for a second set of hands playing along at her Grand Piano.
I'd give her mine if it weren't for the distance between Earth and
~The Funeral Portrait, "To Whom It May Concern"
"They chose to split the sky in two, one half for me and one for you,
too. I fled the enigmatic state to be the author of my fate."
~The Funeral Portrait, "Shaking Hands"
"A hundred thousand years of acid rain to scorch the Earth... A
shallow grave transforms into a sea of afterbirth..."
~The Funeral Portrait, "Like Father Like Son"
"He's a stranger to some, and a vision to none. He can never get
enough, get enough of the one. For a fortune he'd quit, but it's hard
to admit how it ends and begins. On his face is a map of the world."
~Thirty Seconds To Mars, "From Yesterday"
"Your promises, they look like lies. Your honesty like a back that
hides a knife. I promise you, I promise you, I am finally free. Run
away, run away. I'll attack. Run away, run away. Go chase yourself."
~Thirty Seconds To Mars, "Attack"
"When I dream, I dream of your lips. When I dream, I dream of your
kiss. When I dream, I dream of your fists."
~Placebo, "Pierrot The Clown"
"And in the darkest nights, if my memory serves me right, I'll never
turn back time; forgetting you, but not the time."
~Green Day, "Whatsername"
"A new day dawning comes without warning. So don't think twice. We
live in troubled times."
~Green Day, "Troubled Times"
"I don't want your sympathy, I don't want your honesty, I just wanna
get some peace of mind. It's only in my head as I roll over and play
dead. I don't want to hear it anymore."
~Green Day, "Lazy Bones"
"I'm wide awake after the riot; this demonstration of our anguish.
This empty laughter has no reason, like a bottle of your favorite
poison. We are the last call, and we're so pathetic."
~Green Day, "Murder City"
"Another turning point. A fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by
the wrist, directs you where to go. So make the best of this test and
don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. It's
something unpredictable, but in the end, it's right. I hope you had
the time of your life."
~Green Day, "Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
"At the center of the earth, in the parking lot of the 7-Eleven where
I was taught the motto was just a lie; it says, "Home is where your
heart is," but what a shame, 'cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the
same; it's beating out of time."
~Green Day, "Jesus Of Suburbia"
"Cold silence has the tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion."
"Is love only sweeter when one of us dies?"
~Marilyn Manson, "Just A Car Crash Away"
"This was never my world. You took the angel away. I kill myself to
make everybody pay."
~Marilyn Manson, "Coma Black"
I have ten tattoos (left wrist, right wrist, left upper arm, left
front shoulder, left back shoulder, right front shoulder, two left
leg, two right leg) and seven piercings (two left ear lobe with lower
one stretched, two right ear lobe with lower one stretched, left lower
lip, right lower lip, middle upper lip).
Music is my second oxygen. I need it to live.
Video games are better than any drug.
I have a very unhealthy obsession with The Joker.
Sarcasm and Irony are my best social skills.
I don't put up with bullshit like I used to.
I'm extremely depressed a high majority of the time.
I'm completely broken, and the chances of you being able to fix me are
slim to none.
My brain works differently from that of most people. You may or may
not be able to handle it.
You'll probably never really understand me. It's up to you to decide
if you want to try to or not.