I'm a bastard...I'm a bad person, I've done nothing but hurt someone
who is very important to me. and I know I can never have her back, and
I can never have her forgiveness...but it feels right to honor
everything she did for me, all the good she brought my life.
She brought out a part of me that I didn't know I had, she helped me
find my art, my music, my laughter, my love. I will eternally thank
her for that.
"I am strong because I am weak,
I am beautiful because I know my flaws,
I am a lover because I am a fighter,
I am fearless because I have been afraid,
I am wise because I have been foolish,
I can laugh because I have known sadness."
I just want her to know how sorry I am, how much I miss her, and how
much I wish I could be with her. I just want her to know how much I
miss the warmth of her embrace, the way I couldn't be sad when she was
around, the way she made me feel like no ever has.
Everything that is important to me is important because of her.
-She showed me I could draw, that I had potential, that I could be
-She shared my music with me, and loved it like I did
-She admired my painting, and pushed me to go further
-She leant me a book to read, I haven't finished it...but it is one of
the greatest books I've ever read
-She is a writer, and a philosopher, like me, we shared our writing,
and she was my muse, my reason to write
-We met because of anime, and she shared her anime with me, and I
all this and more...
though it doesn't forgive what I've done to you, it never will, I want
you to be happy, whoever your path leads you too...I wish it could
lead you back to me...but I understand that I am far back on the path,
a painful reminder...
Robyn Cornelsen, I am sorry, sorry for everything I did that hurt
you...I love you...