I get mad at people for partying, and drinking, and smoking, and
having underage forms of sex, when I've been in that position myself.
I complain about having no friends, when in reality I push away people
I never totally got to know. I love everyone, they're all beautiful
creatures, but I always complain about how people suck. I don't judge
anyone, but I'm an asshole about things. I say what I want and anger
the people around me. I get pushed down, and bashed for things no one
ever understands. I get blamed for other people's actions. I confuse
love and lust. When in reality it's just lust. I love movies that make
me cry my eyes out. I like crying, it makes me feel better. I like
sloths, and zebras, and puppies. I have a dog, his name is Tato.
Everyone mistakes him for a girl, and a puppy. He makes strangers day
with his cuteness. Their happiness makes me happy. I'm rambling. I
don't know if there's a point to this, but why not just talk. I live
in a small mountain town in Southern California. And I don't know how
to make friends because of it. I'm a Junior in Highschool, and I've
been homeschooled my entire life. I'm sixteen. I love everyone for who
they are, their religions, races and sexuality. I used to be
bi-sexual. I had the same girlfriend on and off for two - three years.
Then I ruined it. But life goes on. I don't understand my sexuality. I
guess I'm straight, but I love everyone. And I fall in love with their
personalities. I'd date a girl; but for her being her, nothing sexual.
Isn't that pan-sexuality or something like that? I like to be alone,
but I get too lonely. I have two best friends. But I feel like they're
better then me. I feel like the ugly friend around them. They're so
beautiful, and I'm nothing compared to them. --I'm tall. Everyone
tells me I should be a model. I'm tall, and skinny. I've modeled for
art school fashion shows. Sometimes it sucks being skinny. The other
day someone came up to me and asked "Is that a diet or natural?" That
was rude. Humph.
I love you, lets be best friends, forever. <3