This is just a page for me to vent or for other people
to vent or ask for help/advice, whatever.
Post/Message/Letter me anything!:p
If you message me anything you need help with,
I'll give you advice anonymously on this page.
Also, any questions you have you can message and
I'll answer them heree.
September 24, 2012
So, I decided to make this page just to write some stuff out.
When I don't have someone to vent to, I get somewhat stressed, and this usually helps me out.
These past few years I've made some poor decisions, and I've let those decisions define me.
After thinking about things for awhile, I've realized that I don't have to let all this take control of my life.
I think it's time for a change, but I just don't know where to start.
I've thought about just leaving, but I just can't see that helping my situation.
If anything, leaving could make a lot of things worse.
I'm probably staying here and attempting change.
It's just hard when for years I've chosen to keep friends that are involved
with similar situations I'm trying to get myself out of.
I'm not sure how to let those people go.
I recently got referred to drug counseling, and I agreed to
let the people there help me.
I guess I'm taking a step forward, but I'm just indecisive about my choices
Feel free to express your point of views on it.
Negative or positive, I love to hear it.
October 7, 2012
Well, I've gone M.I.A to nearly everyone.
I've got to go to school, so getting away from the people there isn't exactly
what I'd call easy. Ignoring them seems sort of rude as well. I'm not really sure of
a way to ignore them effectively. I've kept a total of two friends as of today, and I'm
positive that those two and my family are the right choice when it comes to
the people I need to keep in contact with.
School isn't in tomorrow and I've been away for about five days.
Honestly, I'm kind of scared to go back, but why should I fear a place where I'm supposed
to learn? I guess I just don't want to be bullied due to my sudden desocialization and slight
change in "style". It's ridiculous that you get talked negatively about when you're
trying to change for the better. All I want to do is change into a better person,
so why is it being such a hard task? I don't know.
I suppose people are just used to the old me, but slowly, I'm becoming a
seemingly different person. Well, it may seem different to some, but I feel
like I'm just backing up a bit and taking life a little bit slower.
I'll take things in small steps, and if people don't like it, I'm not going to care.
I'm trying not to let words and dirty stares effect me,
and I'll just have to see where my decisions lead me.
I think I'm turning around to take a better path, and it's my life.
Let me live it as I wish is all I ask from those who continue to give negative
input on my own choices, but the request seems like too much for some reason.