I may have failed but im still standingg.
Am I trying? Thats my question,I Have nocontrol over my
answers.Everything I put on a test has to be right. But it's a tottall
lie. I hate it.I'm allways depressed but At times I become,wild.
funny. hyper. crazy. and you know what, I love those times.my friends
make me happy i'd have a phone call in 2 in the morning sayingmake me
food, come over this is horrible, omfg izzy help, dude i cant sleeep.
those are txt messages i allways get from abby.my bestfriend who
flirts with boys.. haha :DD
and tha allways call me when she is in a fight and she calls meher
back up peoplee.notice how i said 'peoplee.'yeah she calls me people
to make it sound badd.and dude its bad alright me and her runn we runn
like 50 miles away.im still mad at her for eating my gushes.im more
confussed than cats with peanut butter jelly sandwhich.but, i know i
will never forget abby. abby broke my leg,she cracks my hands which is
gross. she swings with me when im sad and alone,when she talks to me
dude, i just have to laugh.she sucks at wiifit.and i allways laugh at
her no matter what.I dont like how i write.i need space in crowded
places or i get angry and push :D im scared of ladders,toasters, and
cats.i dont want to be like anyone else, i want a different
life.unlike ayothers. my name isn't isabella just to tell you.its
actually izabilliana. so ha. :D im so different its hot.im not snooty.
im not grabby pushy or igorant.i just threaten people. :D Becarefull
of abby she'd fucking kill you blast on te music im ready to roll it
down.bring it up bring it up. let it flow down.drop it like its
hoooottttttttttttttttttt.when i was little when i was depressed iused
to runn outside in the rain lock the door stan in the front step and
let the rain fall in my eyes in my hair on my face onmy little cute
blue dress running away. i allways used to fall too while i was
running.they used to look for me but i was huging a tree and hiding
from them tilll the rain stops.they used to say, 'Areyou there?,
Izzy...' and i used to scream i just used to screamm.my mom always
wasbeautiful brave and photographer she was just, awesome.i climbed
trees and waiting till someone actually cared where i was.but now, i
run out side and beside the lake and i just jump. in there. in the
rain. who cares? they just used to ask,' Are you there? izzy.......'
and look for me and i just pick p rocks and throw it at the lake.
turtles everywhere i pick up them and just talk. talk about my
feelings.and let them go.I'm the bravest girl you've ever met, i have
to nerve to jump out my window to abbys, i allways do that. people
take pictures of me when im sleep. i hate it. no not really.we talk to
eachother till like 5 in the morning when abby goes somewhere, dude,
im fucking coming never gave up on her neer will dude, i love youu.